Ramblings and Drabbles

Hi guys; I don't actually know who I am talking to now, but anyone who would like to listen is more than appreciated! Anyways I have been writing some more, and yesterday, my best friend Luca and I started writing a story where we each wrote anything between 3 sentences to a paragraph, and I am giving the internet a small preview! So for anyone out there, here it is!

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He looked back one final time before turning around and walking away. That would be the last time. The last time he would ever see him. The wind picked up as he started off down the road, his mind too busy to process what was going on. He marched with a determined pace, wanting to get away. Away from everything, nothing mattered anymore; something else was waiting for him. Something far greater and better than anything his old life could ever offer him. 

Turning the corner, his mind shut down and his instincts took over. He broke into a run, leaving this place, and his previous state of mind, far behind.
He knew what he had to do now, still running, he thought about him. Slowing down, catching his breath, looking down. It was over. Thinking back to what he had felt like before. He could still go back and- No, it was over. He had to move on. All the pain, the misery he had faced, it was all gone. Though he felt bad about leaving behind all his friends, he knew it was for the best and he had made the right decision.

He picked up his pace and soon found himself aimlessly roaming the outskirts of the town he was leaving. His mind was already on his future, the packing, the moving, the new feeling of it all. But was he ready? All that was waiting for him in the future, would it be worth it? He walked and walked as the bright day grew orangey and the afternoon light bounced off his perfectly sculpted hair and illuminated his features. The ever-present breeze was turning into quite a powerful force as his scarf was floating in midair. Hugging his coat tightly around himself, he looked up at a store window and saw his reflection. He was slightly shaking and decided he needed to get out of the autumn chill.

Pink: Leah's writing
Purple: Loulou's writing

Also, I had the honor of being called someone's best friend not that long ago. And let me tell you something. It felt really nice. (Here comes the rambling) There is a difference, at least in my mind, between you asking "Am I your best friend?" and getting yes as an answer, and having someone tell you straight out that "You are my best friend." It was just amazing to have someone say that to me for once. Because i don't know about you guys, but I could never lie while saying "You are my best friend." And it felt really nice, and i know I already said that, but I am still in my fan fiction writing mood and its beautiful and everything is Klaine and nothing hurts. Especially now that I have a best friend to write them with!! So yeah, Haters gonna hate, Klainers gonna Klaine, and I klain't even mad! And now i bid thee farewell!!!

xoxoxo,
loulou

What Leyla wastes her free time doing!

SO in the little free time I have had, I have been writting stories! Now you my think thats that is a normal human activity, but since I'm not normal I advise you to think again. Because my strories have Kurt and Blaine as Characters... So Yeah! Im not normal! But I wanna give you guys something, so here it is! For anyone who does follow Glee, it is from Season 2 Episode 18: Born this way. The "Somewhere Only We Know" (By Keane) Scene. If you guys dont know that song, listen right now. Not even the Glee version if you dont want to. It's just a beautiful song and you should listen! Alright onto the story!

Title: In that moment, they were infinite...

The bustling crowd seemed to steer clear of the group of schoolboys sitting in a corner by the large steps that led towards the tables. Most of these boys were sitting on the floor, talking about the latest blazers and cars, but one boy in particular could not rest. The wind picked up slightly, sending a shiver down his spine and seeping through his tightly gelled auburn hair. His face remained emotionless and tense as he looked from side to side, then down to his watch, them back up towards the stairs. People were beginning to murmur inaudibly, but something was definitely happening. Running his fingers nervously through his hair, the terrified leader managed to hide his fear as he turned to look at his friends with an earnest look of sadness in his glowing hazel eyes. The preppy boys all seemed to snap back into reality, as their companion’s stare seemed to drill a hole into their soul. They all got up in unison, and most of them looked fondly at the young lead, trying to comfort him without saying anything. Surrounded by his friends, he felt safe, and then he heard it.

“Kurt Hummel is back at McKinley!!” The delicate voice made its way towards the lead’s ears, and hearing it soothed his troubled soul immediately. He tensed up slightly, and then listened, but no other words were understandable. Glancing over at the boy to his right, he saw him start to walk forward. In that instant, he felt his brain go numb. He could not go on. He could not get any closer to the voice of the angel he had not yet seen. He could not take one more step because he feared for his delicate heart, his fleeting love. Yet he was not able to resist. The voice was calling to him, and he yearned to answer, needing to see those dazzling opalescent eyes once more. He caught up to the others and took the lead, grateful to be surrounded by his closest friends. He could not have done this alone. They were on the edge of the steps, and he was not facing them, but he knew they felt his gratitude, as they all prepared for their big event. Stepping slowly onto the first step, the vocalist looked longingly at a certain boy, and at that moment he felt at peace. Nothing else mattered now. He started to talk, but his words were not important. He couldn’t even tell what he was saying, he just knew that he meant it. The other boy, Kurt, suddenly felt a great pain in his chest. And once the dashing schoolboy had started singing, it only got worse.

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand.
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete.

With each phrase he took a step down, gazing at Kurt’s dazzling porcelain face, his delicate jaw bones, his astounding russet hair shimmering in the sunlight.

Oh simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

Closing in on the group of friends that surrounded the precious soul, he couldn’t bear to look at Kurt’s face, and instead focused on his dashing companions harmonizing perfectly in the background.

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

The piano came into view, and he rushed towards it, not only playing along, but using it to steady his shaking body without looking suspicious.

And if you have a minute, why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know

Oh simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute, why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go? So why don't we go?

Oh, this could be the end of everything
So why don't we go somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know
Somewhere only we know

During the last chorus, the Warlers one by one filed out of the courtyard after giving Kurt the goodbye they believe he deserved. They all stood in a line now, above the shuttering lead, as he tried to keep his focus on the last few notes, holding the last word in the most melodic of whispers, ending in a low sigh. The last note rang for a while and it hung in the air for what seemed like an eternity. But it eventually faded as well, leaving just the boy, alone in a crowded space, hands trembling slightly at his side, fighting back tears yet about to accept defeat. He closed his eyes for a brief moment, trying in vain to keep his emotions inside. Then he felt a strong pair of arms wrap themselves forcefully yet delicately around him, and he let it all out. Wrapping his arms around the delicate chest, he clung onto the boys back for dear life, afraid that letting go would mean losing him.

“Blaine, that was beautiful…” The last word trailed off as Blaine could feel Kurt shivering slightly as he gave in to the tears. The warm water was caressing his cheek, but it didn’t matter at all as long as his angel was in his grasp. “I’m never saying goodbye to you.” The harmonious voice continued, before Kurt choked up and also started crying. In that moment, they seemed infinite, and Blaine realized why this boy was true perfection. Fighting back the urge to kiss him, Blaine just nuzzled his head into Kurt’s warm neck, believing that he was ready to die in Kurt’s embrace. Nothing would matter anymore as long as his strong arms were there to protect him. Yet the feeling ended much too soon as Kurt reluctantly pulled away. He took a few steps back, admiring the glistening trails of tears that were blazing on Blaine’s cheeks. Watching Kurt look at him so longingly was too much for him, and with a small but powerful nod of the head, Blaine turned around and joined his fellow vocalists, not looking back, and succumbing under the pressure of his sadness. He never even made it out of McKinley high school, as he had leant against a wall around the corner and pounded his fist in despair. But it was too late, Kurt was happy and that was all that mattered.

So why don’t we go somewhere only we know?

I really, really enjoy writing stories of all kinds! So if anyone has any suggestions I would be glad to write something for them! Doesn't have to be about Glee, it can be anything! Anyways until next time guys!

xoxoxo,

loulou

I have very many mixed feelings right now...

I am in a glass case of emotions. Or more like an Ipod full of emotions. More than usual my songs are influencing my moods and making me more or less sad... ish I guess... I just have no idea how to express my feelings, be they happy or sad. But I must be going crazy cause I have now been listening to Disney songs on repeat for the past 2 days. But you know what, it makes me happy and that should be enough for people. (Apparently I am gonna ramble about this now...)
So if you guys are still in touch with what has been happening in my boring little life, I went on a camping trip with my school last weekend! It was really fun, but not much happened. The only thing I do want to talk about is that around 1 AM in our tent on the freezing ground, my friend and I started talking. We were talking about the most stupid things, but it felt nice to talk about all this randomness and get the stupidest things off my chest. Stuff from like my friends from 5 years ago, my thoughts on moving, my thoughts on our new teachers. The stupidest things ever. Yet just talking about them made me feel happy. Just laughing silently in my tent, not worrying about anything, it made me feel very happy and it made me feel relaxed. Now this is telling you that happy thoughts will make me happy, you following pretty well so far? Well it gets harder to follow.

I was watching Glee, like always I mean no surprise there, and Somewhere Only We Know came on, and I usually tear up at the song, but seeing the scene now, and having all this extra information about season 3, I was in a very emotional state, and I was just kinda crying in my bed... Not like hardcore crying, like sobbing, but I had tears streaming down my face. The only thing was that I was smiling. And no I am not some freak that enjoys being sad, but I think that I was truly crying tears of joy. I wish I could explain to you people who may or may not care, and I wish every analysis that I have made with my friend about them I could just copy and paste onto here, but sadly I cannot. So I shall not bore you with details that you will probably not understand, but I will say this. Kurt and Blaine's relationship is not a normal one, yet it is not an impossible one to attain. It is in fact an actual human relationship, it's just that I guess most young people have not had a chance to experience it yet. Their relationship gives me hope for so many things, namely romance and acceptance. And they stand for so much more than just an adorable couple, they stand for young people all over the world. They mean so much to me, and as you know, that actors have inspired me so much, in countless ways. SO to bring this little paragraoh to an end, crying also made me feel happy. It was like unbottling all of my emotions, and I actually usually laugh until I cry, because I believe it is the best of both worlds.
But seriously, aren't they the cutest couple ever?
And I honestly don't really care what people think of my love for them. I mean, I do care that you have an opinion, but this year I really want to let others know that what they say can only affect me positively. And I think that I am done on this subject.

Now onto expressing my true self, I have Starkid to thank! They have brought out the inner fan in me and I can honestly say that I have never felt this happy overall and this excited about the littlest things! I mean I just ordered my Starkid shirt and I am dying of excitement! I mean, I feel like they could very possibly be the best friends ever! And so to conclude this pointless and not too straightforward post, I am in love with the new me; and I hope you guys are too! If not, then... yeah.

To anyone who still follows my blog, thank you so much for bearing with me in this awkward phase. I will probably post more now because I am on break but tomorrow I am on a plane all day so I shall be busy! Ill see you guys from America!!! And once again thank you guys!!

xoxoxo,
loulou