Dear love of my life

I have spent my whole day avoiding you, and you can't begin to understand how hard it is. When I got to school this morning, as soon as I walked through the doors I imagined you there by my side, holding my bag in one hand and touching the tips of my fingers with the other. I got to my locker and you were there, by it, tempting me to run back to you. But I was strong, I pushed you away, and I was going to make it. At lunch, I heard your name and felt a pain so harsh that I almost fell down the stairs, but it was no matter, I had to get to Student council, and I had better things to think about. Or so I thought. You would not leave me alone, you were there the whole day, in the back of my mind, distracting and tantalizing me forevermore.
Then I got home and I felt relieved, I didnt have to think about you anymore. And so I went and watched Glee, and I didnt even make it through the whole episode. When Blaine told Kurt that he couldn't stand to be away from the person he loved, I died inside. And the second the episode finished I rushed downstairs and sure enough, you were there! And you took me back with open arms! And this is why I truly mean it when I say, Tumblr, I HAVE MISSED YOU SO MUCH!! Thank you for giving me time to think and finally make the right decision, because I love you so much, and I know that now!
LOULOU + TUMBLR FOREVAH!

Hahah this is a little post I wrote on my tumblr about Glee; Dysfunctional Obsessions

And I AL DYING INSIDE SO PREPARE FOR SOME KEYBOARD SMASHING!!!
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Alright I believe that that is enough keyboard smashing for one post. I just want to tell you guys that I love you all and the fact that you still love me even after this little crazy acting is beautiful. And now for the reason that I love this episode so much that you guys will probably enjoy is the fact that they make me feel better about my dreams. I mean we all have dreams when we are small, about being princesses; or actresses, or models. But I honestly believe that I a pushing myself to reach my childhood dream. I have always thought of acting as the perfect profession. I mean, it allows you to escape whatever problems you have and just be someone else for an hour or two. And that is why acting is just so important. Actors allow you to connect with something new, whether it be a part of you you had no idea about, or something that isnt about you but that makes you feel safe. And I will not rest until I am able to do this, even if it is on a lower scale and that I may never make it on the larger stages, much less Broadway. But hey, a girl can dream! ;)

xoxoxo,

loulou

Also, I am changing my blog title to make it more theatery, and I believe this blog will become much more about my life through a theater point of view. So if you dont like theater, I dont think you will like my blog very much... :)

CONCERT!

Alrighty guys! I have just gotten up, and yesterday is still etched into my brain! The concert was amazing! My friend got to my house at about 4 PM, and we needed to leave at 6 PM. So at 4 we started to make our headbands! Hers was gonna have a city, and mine an owl! But I started to help her with hers and then once I started mine, it was 4:45. So then when I finished mine, I realised that I had no way of sticking it on.... Long story short, I ended up glueing an owl onto my headband! Luca's looked really cool thought, cause we had like traced a city skyline and then colored in some windows with shiny markers to make the look lit up. Alrighty, well sadly we finished our headbands at 5:45 and we hadnt even gotten dressed! SO we scrambled through my clothes to find my Owl City shirt  and pants to go along, and Luca had to find a shirt to wear cause.... yeah. Just Cause. Then we had to do our hair and our makeup, and we put SPARKLES on our eyelids, except mine all fell onto my cheeks and i looked like I had sparkly cheeks! Anyways so that meant that we left at 6:25... the doors opened at 6:30... But whatever. Then when we got there, we had to look for a parking spot, and when we didnt find one, it took us forever to go to the parking place cause there was a lot of traffic.well that meant we got inside at 7:15 and the first opening act had started.

She was Briann, and plays the piano and vocals for Adam. Well we only heard one of her songs before she ended. We tried to get as close to the stage as possible and we managed to get pretty close, but we were really far off to the side. Then we waited about 30 minutes before the second opening act started, and his name was The Unicorn kid. Honestly speaking, I did not enjoy his music, but hey, its not for everyone. After 30 minutes of that, we had to wait until 9 to get to hear Adam! At this point we were buzzing with excitement! And when he came onstage my mind went blank, all I could think about was Owl City and the lyrics to whatever song he was singing! Also, he was wuch a nice guy! He kept on saying how much he loved Belgium, and that he had eaten a cloud (By that he meant a delicious BELGIAN waffle) And how he was so glad he had decided to come back to Belgium again. Well it was just amazing. I am just sorry that my dear friend Emiko didnt get to come... I just hope that you had fun in London and that the pictures, videos, and merch that we have will start to make it up to you. Alrighty, now for some (bad) Pictures while I go to eat my breakfast!

xoxoxo,

loulou

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I AM FREAKING OUT I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO CONTROL MY EMOTIONS!!!! THE NEXT TWO WEEKS ARE GONNA BE THE BUSIEST AND THE BEST OF MY YEAR!!!! TODAY I AM GOING TO AN OWL CITY CONCERT!!! (IN ABOUT 8 HOURSSS!!!!!) THEN ON SUNDAY I HAVE SCHOOL CAMPING TRIP AND THE EMMY's (Go Glee!) AND THEN RUGBY WORLD CUP! (France vs Canada!) Then monday its STILL CAMPING!!!! AND THEN ON TUESDAY ITS... I need a moment to write in lowercase so that the Caps can contrast... GLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! Okay, enough caps. Only for special occasions now, like GLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!  Alrighty, on that Thursday I have speech and debate and my discipline is DUET ACTING! Then on that Friday I got to LONDON FOR A THEATER TRIP! And that is for the long weekend we have! and then we skip a week of boring normal school, and then October 14-16 I AM IN DISNEYLAND PARIS TO PLAY AND HANG OUT WITH MY SCHOOL BAND!!! :) AHUIEGZDOABXGEZCZEOXNEZ

Okay, I am calmer now. But I am like legit screaming!!! AND LUCA IS GONNA BE WITH ME EVERY STEP OF THE WAY!!! Except for Disney... BUT OH WELL. I LOVE YOU LUCA!!!!!! alrighty I am done because I have a lot of homework to finish like Tonight cause I have a busy weekend as you can see! And you guys can excpect updates that will look like this as soon as one of these happens: aysgzvfuzgiqzhodefrgzhijqzfhurgsvqcjiouezhgfazdjxqiCOSDUVGYERHZ
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So yeah, there will also be actual words in those updates, but they will all probably start this way! Anyways thank you guys for putting up with my madness! I LOVE YOU ALL TOO!!


xoxoxo,
loulou

Busy busy bee, that's me!

Alright, first of all, GLEE STARTS IN EXACTLY 8 DAYS 6 HOURS 22 MINUTES AND 37 SECONDS! (this is no longer exact, but you get the picture!)

Second of all, I am wayyy to busy this year. I think I have something every day or about everyday! So for all you beautiful people, here is my schedule!

1. Monday: My brother has sports, I had an IA meeting, like a hiking thing where you develop skills
2. Tuesday: Student council leadership committee meeting! (You are looking at vice-president to non other than Emiko!)
3. Wednesday: Normal student council meeting
4. Thursday: Speech and Debate practice from 4:00-5:30
5. Friday: This Friday is OWL CITY CONCERT! I AM SO EXCITED! I have had my tickets since March 15! Like 6 MONTHS AHEAD OF TIME! HHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA HI am so excited! I think I am gonna die of anticipation!

And I am so uper duper busy because 9th grade is a poopy year and I have a bunch of homework and it all goes on my permanent record and so I am scared for college and I really want to go to a good college!

Alright I have to go but I love you all!

xoxoxo,
loulou

My dahsboard has died.

Hey,
Umm I am having a slight problem because I cannot see any of the blogs I follow on my homepage anymore... So I cannot know when you guys post. Poo... Maybe it is because I am at school right now in my English Free period. Oh well. Ill try to fix it at home. Hopefully it will work. Alirghty guys, byee!

xoxoxo,
loulou

I hate school...

I have been so busy lately, and it seems like these weeks were supposed to be our "relaxed week" to give us some time to re-adjust... Well I stayed up till midnight yesterday trying to finish my script for drama class... but anyways...

Hi guys! You can ignore the first part, I am like mad at my school. I wanted to thank you guys for all the support you have given, and I realize I may have over-reacted, but I appreciate all your care! Now I am sorry I havent blogged a lot, but apart from work I havent dona a lot.... Like serisouly, my time has been FLAILING INTERNALLY BECAUSE GLEE STARTS IN 12 DAYS, or dying because of the amount of Homework I have... To all my young readers, enjoy Middle School, because High School is like the bottom of the food chain, and by that I mean it eats you alive... Like school physically eats you! No i am kidding of course! hahahahahahah.... wow am I awkward. I dont even really know how I have friends... Anyways umm I have nothing productive to say.

Umm well maybe Ill go then. Again sorry for all the not posting, and i dont even think this post counts as a post, but I will promise as soon as something happens ill let you know!
Actually, here is something;

So you guys remember my like book idea right? well I wrote like 4-5 actual songs, like ones I finished, but i may have... *cough cough* lostmybook.............
Dont judge, I suck at keeping stuff ordered and like yeah.... But I was gonna post one, but it is gone so I cannot... sorry guys!
And yeah, that is all I can think of! So again sorry, and see you guys soon I hope!

xoxoxo,
loulou

I think I metaphorically died...

Alright, so I haven't blogged in a while because of school starting again, and blah blah blah...
And I told you guys about my audition. Well I didnt make it in. And I really dont want to sound snobby or anything, but I really thought I would make it in. I mean I have been in every play at this school for the past 4 years, but I guess the new director thought I wasnt good enough. which I understand, it is up to her and all. But the problem is that the director is also one of the two Drama teachers at our school, and she is MY drama teacher. So yesterday I had drama class and it was very awkward because my teacher wanted us to do an acting exercise. And I really felt like she was actually picking on me... I may be like over-exaggerating but I swear she was singling my friends  out and I really dont know why.

But anyways the purpose of this post I guess is just to rant about how my life has been lately... I have been soooo absent minded lately. I am just trying to get re-adjusted I guess. But hey, learning from your mistakes, right? ill just use my slight anger and sadness and use it to push myself to be better and make the bid play... Alright enough about my life.

I shall now go and comment on all your lovely blogs!

xoxoxo,
loulou